Aviana's one month visit to the pediatrician was this past Monday, and the doctor was concerned that she looked a bit pale. So, he drew some blood to make sure that she's not anemic. The results were negative, but apparently Avi has a high hemoglobin count. According to the doctor, this could be because she was on the verge of dehydration and wasn't getting enough to eat.
Unfortunately, I am not producing enough breast milk and Avi hasn’t been gaining much weight.
~When she was born she weighed 6 pounds 13 ounces.
~When we left the hospital she weighed 6 pounds 1 ounce.
~For her one week doctors visit she weighed 6 pounds 7 ounces.
~And for her one month visit she weighed 6 pounds 13 ounces (same as her birth weight).
The pedi wants to see her back tomorrow (Saturday) to see how her weight gain is going. He recommended that after each feed, I give her formula or pumped breast milk until she is satisfied.
To be honest, this has been really tough for me emotionally. After he told me about her weight issue, I came home and cried. I didn’t let anyone see me like this, including my husband. I felt like this was my fault because I should have noticed this sooner. I felt horrible. I felt like a bad mommy. I even considered giving up on breastfeeding altogether because it has been such a stressful and frustrating process. When I pump, I’m lucky if I can even get a full ounce. Also, when Avi latches on it hurts like hell. My nipples even started to bleed at one point (not fun). I have tried everything that my gynecologist has told me to do to produce more milk and nothing seems to be working for me.
I’m still not sure what I’m going to do about breastfeeding. I’m just not certain I’m ready to give up on it just yet. I know that breast milk is the healthiest for my daughter so it’s hard to give it up so soon. My goal was to breastfeed for AT LEAST 3 to 6 months. My husband and I discussed getting a lactation specialist to come to our house and help me out. I’m hoping this helps. Any mommies out there have any advice?
P.S. Did you know August is Breastfeeding Awareness Month? =)